The Beloved Space

Forever finding my way back

Hi, I’m  Sarah Jo

I have a husband, a house, a business, and a blue heeler.
I have so many things. And yet, here I am. Looking. Seeking. Trying to find the place I feel like my whole self.

I wish I didn’t have bipolar disorder. I wish I was steady and reliable and consistent. I wish I didn’t have to contain my moods to make others comfortable. I wish I could fine a place to be…all of me.

I don’t need a place to find nice words or inspiration. I don’t need a place to be impressive.  I don’t need a place to put a polish on my daily life.

I need this space. This beloved space where I can be raw, vulnerable, and completely ridiculous. And every time I find this place, I realize it’s exactly where I am, have been, and will be.

You are welcome here, but please know, what fits nicely on me might be a bit snug around your shoulders. Exploring your mental health can feel strange. Don’t be surprised if you find my words uncomfortable.

With that in mind…

I hope I can help you. I hope my struggles help you see you aren’t alone. I hope my failures and successes are yours. I hope you can cry with me, laugh with me, and feel incredibly uncomfortable with me.

If you are living with mental illness, start here. If you love someone living with a mental illness, start here. And if you don’t like my work, please file your complaints here.

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When My Brain Turns on Me

Try something with me. Try to not think for ten seconds. Just ten seconds of absolutely zero thought. Nope. Not possible. Our brains are can’t-stop won’t-stop machines. Constantly taking information in, filtering it, organizing it, and spitting it back...

Postpartum Depression: A Mother’s Window

Hey there! A few friends mention they’d love to hear some different perspectives on mental health. My sister has graciously agreed to share a snippet of her story, please show her some love.  Hi! I’m Sarah’s sister, Beth. I’m also a Mental Health Professional,...

I Am A Safe Space

Sharing my story has opened up the door for so many people to reach to me for help. And it’s been amazing. But you guys, I can’t help everyone. And I need your help. We need to create safe environments for our friends and loved ones to share their...

Married and Depressed

It wasn’t until we were lying in bed that he finally told me what was wrong. Coming home, he had expected to find me waiting. Instead he found groceries haphazardly tossed on the floor. As he picked up the frozen chicken, he prepared himself. He knew I was sad,...

When I Wake Up So Grumpy

I write what I feel. And today, I feel like the spawn of oscar the grouch. My dogs made me wake up earlier than I wanted. Everything is stupid and my coffee is too hot. But I’m so tired so I need more coffee. . . . . One cup down. . . . . Two cups down. . . . ....

What I’m Working On

Besides being a STELLAR stay at home dog-mom, I’ve actually been doing some real work. Really. I’m just as shocked as you are. I’ve started consulting for a few companies, various marketing projects and what-not. Which is super fun, because money....

My Wedding Day [Video]

The weirdest day of my life and the most wonderful day of my life, both happened on the same day. And that day was my wedding day. My husband proposed in February, so we set the wedding date for September. Seemed like a good month. We were shooting for a backyard...

Stop Saying Yes

Seriously. Stop doing it. Some people might tell you Embrace Life! or Say Yes To Your Best You!! or whatever. But I’m telling you, in my wildly professional opinion, to Stop IT. We are so quick to say yes to new things being added to our life. We just keeping...

Finding My Strengths

When you’re not using your God-given strengths, where do they hide? If you’re working a job where your abilities aren’t being used…..do those skills cease to exist? If a tree falls in the woods but no one is around to hear it, does it make a...

Family

I wrote a post on Friday. And I didn’t publish it. It was filled with anger. So much anger and hate. It was about my family. A topic I’ve been avoiding. But a topic that has to be discussed. It would shed an unfortunate light on the people who shaped who I...

My Black Car Moment

About a year ago I was looking into buying a new car. My 2003 Ford Taurus wasn’t really fitting my lifestyle anymore, and by lifestyle, I mean I was sick of getting stranded every time there was a light dusting of snow. So I researched new vehicles.  I had...

Winter Is Coming

I’ve had a really great two weeks. I’m feeling peaceful and hopeful. Which means it’s time to start preparing for winter. Winter is code for “Holy crap I’m depressed and sad and anxious for no reason.” Preparing for a depressed few...

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