The dark days

Climb a mountain to only move a inch. Claw, scrape, dig fingernails in dark, dark, dark dirt. Falling. Failing. Slipping. Once as easy as a wish, moves slow, viscous like honey, but not sweet. Bitter and familiar, this battle. Aching, aching, aching, climbing,...

Three Days Crazy: Night 1

This is the second installment of my Three Days Crazy series. You can read the first installment here. I stopped crying long enough to notice how hungry I was. I had no idea what time it was, the small rooms didn’t have clocks and my cell phone was locked away,...

Three Days Crazy: Day 1

When I finally made the decision to open my eyes, I was rewarded by a blinding light. I rolled over and grabbed for my soft down comforter. Instead, my hand found a rough knit blanket. Dread washed up my throat and into my mouth. I remembered where I was. I heard a...

Married and Depressed: I Lost The Man of My Dreams

When I was 18, I met the love of my life. My soul mate, if you’re into that kind of thing. I met him on his 18th birthday, the day before his high school graduation. I had just finished my first year of college and was an absolute disaster of a human. But that...

Performing Brain Surgery: Part 1

Believe it or not, you can change the way your brain works. Certain thinking exercises can actually change the way your brain handles inputs. Like what. Isn’t that amazing!?!?! One of the first things I learned when I was hospitalized, was the existence...

Married and Depressed

It wasn’t until we were lying in bed that he finally told me what was wrong. Coming home, he had expected to find me waiting. Instead he found groceries haphazardly tossed on the floor. As he picked up the frozen chicken, he prepared himself. He knew I was sad,...