I’ve started working with a life coach, her name is Madison and she rocks.

If you’ve ever wanted to go from a moderately awesome life to an extra awesome life, you should consider chatting with her.

Anyway, the one meeting I’ve had with her has already blown up my life. In a good way.

I’m setting goals, and one of them is to allow my strength and compassion to be seen on a greater scale. Because that’s something I’ve stopped doing.

Basically, once my blog started taking off and people starting reading it, I was all like

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And then I was like

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And I stopped writing. I worried my writing was repetitive. Which is dumb, because life is repetitive. I worried I wasn’t funny or not that helpful. But if the blog was going to be authentic and vulnerable, which is something I committed to, I needed to write every repetitive, not funny, unhelpful word.  But I didn’t want to.

So I got quiet. I started hiding by literally shutting myself away in my house. I put the fierce part of myself up on a shelf. I put the loud and proud Sarah away because she scared me. She was so confrontational and was causing too much of a stir.

I thought it was because I was embracing the quiet side of me. The reflective side. But I was really running away from the bad-ass bitch that I really am.

It wasn’t until a week ago that I realized what I’d done. I had a friend, a really talented friend, take some head shots for my website. I was super freaking nervous, I’m not convinced I photograph well. Not in a “OMG I’m so ugly” way, but I never feel like the pictures actually look like me. But this friend, man, she killed it. She fully captured my bad-ass bitch self.

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And for comparison, here’s what I normally look like.

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Homegirl did WERK.

Anyway, back to my goal. I’ve decided to put myself back out there. Share fearlessly. Because it helped people. And I want to help people. And if making a damn fool out of myself will keep helping people, then dammit, count me in.

So I’m back. Crazy hair and all. Hope you didn’t miss me too much.

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Sarah C.

 

 

 

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