The Beloved Space

Forever finding my way back

Hi, I’m  Sarah Jo

I have a husband, a house, a business, and a blue heeler.
I have so many things. And yet, here I am. Looking. Seeking. Trying to find the place I feel like my whole self.

I wish I didn’t have bipolar disorder. I wish I was steady and reliable and consistent. I wish I didn’t have to contain my moods to make others comfortable. I wish I could fine a place to be…all of me.

I don’t need a place to find nice words or inspiration. I don’t need a place to be impressive.  I don’t need a place to put a polish on my daily life.

I need this space. This beloved space where I can be raw, vulnerable, and completely ridiculous. And every time I find this place, I realize it’s exactly where I am, have been, and will be.

You are welcome here, but please know, what fits nicely on me might be a bit snug around your shoulders. Exploring your mental health can feel strange. Don’t be surprised if you find my words uncomfortable.

With that in mind…

I hope I can help you. I hope my struggles help you see you aren’t alone. I hope my failures and successes are yours. I hope you can cry with me, laugh with me, and feel incredibly uncomfortable with me.

If you are living with mental illness, start here. If you love someone living with a mental illness, start here. And if you don’t like my work, please file your complaints here.

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